Where Have You Been?

Bloggity

What to Expect When You're Not Expecting. Stirrup Queen. Bugaboo Envy. Preheated Oven: Where is my bun? All so creative, yet all so poignant.

We canceled on hosting a small Memorial Day BBQ last night because I'm just not feeling up to it. I'm still not 100% from the "easy" surgery on Wednesday, and I just feel like a hermit. Socializing requires energy, and I just don't have any to put on a brave face. These friends aren't in the land of TTC/IF (which is it?), but the effort required to play normal was entirely too much to bear. So, instead, we spent the day shopping for furniture for the apt. I don't know what I'd do without this apartment; it's a needed distraction. Yes, that "2nd bedroom" occasionally looms, but the open space, the sense of home, and hard work we're putting out in here shadows what's missing (most days). I can cook, clean, organize, decorate, and repair. It makes me feel less like Not Yet A Mom and more like Suzy Homemaker Loves Her Digs.

Not a fair trade, but right now, it's helping.

Try Again

I tried this a while back, but I ended up with my face in my hands and the delete button fixed to the keyboard. TH is sleeping in bed, per his usual Saturday morning routine, and I'm up all alone. Saturday mornings tend to lead to thinking at the computer screen, and this morning, I decided I might as well be reading my own blog, since I've gotten so caught up in everyone else's.