Small updates

-Today is 12 weeks! I can't believe I've been carrying Baby for 10 weeks now. It seems like it's gone so fast and so slow, all at the same time.

-I've started feeling flutters, which make me happy, happy, happy. I felt them three separate times last week. I can't wait for more!

-My appetite returned this weekend, and it was very much welcomed. I actually had some vegetarian Indian yesterday. I can't tell you the last time I had some spinach.

-I've applied for two jobs in the past week. One is higher position in a different department. It's no longer working with patients and more like managing a decent sized clinical trial. For the right salary, I'd take it, but we'll have to see. I was recommended by someone with a great reputation/impact within the university, and the job has been open for over a month. I think I have a pretty good shot at it, but I'm not sure it's the right fit.

-The reason I'm not set on the above job is that I applied for a part-time position in peds. It's two steps up, so the part-time pay might not be all that far off from my current regular pay. If I could get them to pay for this last semester of school, I'd definitely take it. We've been debating whether or not it's worth it financially for me to stay home after the baby comes. I'd have to go back to work for a few months after, but that's about all we're sure about. I'd be completely willing to start up with the part-time work now, as I've been kind of panicked about writing my thesis, taking the last two classes, getting everything ready for baby, and having some time to relax a little before the baby arrives. When I look back on the past year, it's been insane with school and the treatments. I know I have to finish school (even if I'm dragging some major ass right now about it), but I just want some breathing room. I'm also hating my job and the fact that any paths in front of me have closed. My job was never meant to be a longterm gig, and when the degree is done in December, it will have served it's purpose. So, it will be interesting to see how everything plays out. Now is not an ideal time to be job searching, but these positions have kind of just fallen into my lap.

-Everyone is finding out about baby this week. I told work at our weekly meeting today. A fair amount of the women knew because of getting coverage for treatments, so it wasn't too many people to inform. I was super nervous to tell everyone...how do you say it?! So, I just did and thanked them for all the last minute coverage they had to provide for all my appointments. So, I'm also out of the infertility closet.

-The fam is coming this weekend. They may or may not be staying with us because of The Middle Child's allergies. I'm thrilled to see them, but I'm also wondering if I will be a little overwhelmed as well. We have not been keeping up with the apt as much as we normally do, so there will be a cleaning frenzy this weekend. I get tired super easily, and TH has had bigger tasks than cleaning to take on these past few weekends. The good news is that we're making progress on some outstanding projects. The bad news is the equivalent of the state of our "white" tub.

-The cat is coming out of the bag about Baby this week. ♥♥♥ It's such a relief to be able to share the excitement, and it gets me excited all over again each time. As if I needed help.

-I'm collecting the guesses on whether Baby is a boy or a girl, and EVERYone thinks we're having a girl. Only TH and I think boy. Well, Erika has joined us, as she's trusting my instincts. Every time to imagine us with a girl, boy stuff just pops up instead. I can't "see" the girl in my mind, but boy things come easily and aplenty. It goes without saying that we're happy either way, though I sat through a LOVELY conversation in which I walked away after some annoying old man tried to lecture me about this. Save the lecture, my friend. It's not one you need to give us. But anyway, I'm having a super time hearing everyone's guesses and their reasons for it. I had to bare the belly at a BBQ Sat night (during said annoying lecture, actually) for an aunt to give her opinion. Play the game, folks! But if you ever express disappointment, tread lightly!

-NT scan on Friday. Our next OB appt is two weeks after that, so we're doing great with getting me to only have to wait a few weeks between u/s. For that, I am thankful.
And, I'll leave you with the internet unveiling of my uterus, happily filled.